SEPT 26, 2012

Today’s blog is personal and kind of revealing. It’s not a blog per-say but more of a goodbye. My heart if full, even in ache, and my spirit is alive. My healing is in a new season.

I am healthy.  I am strong.  I am fervent. Yet, I’m struggling.

I miss someone who has been very dear to me. My best friend in the making. For a time we tried to make it work, but in the end we said the “timing” just wasn’t right. We both had too much hanging in the balance, each not willing to take the risk. But, I think it was more than that. On a deeper level, our souls were mismatched. I tried hard to ignore the little voice within but I knew from the start it wouldn’t work. In all things worldly, we would have been perfect; our personalities and demeanor, our fun and adventures, oh the places we would go! My kids adored you and I adored yours. But it was too soon. It was a Band-Aid covering up a lifetime of hurt. The foundation was cracked and we would have crumbled. Today I am mourning you and our friendship, for you are a great man. Not a perfect man but one that I respect and adore. On some level I have even loved you – if an already fractured heart could love another?

Goodbye my friend. Goodbye.